OMG *iz tired*
So, I'm writing J2 story for my doll secretlytodream.
And I love this story to the bits, and I'm crazily over protective of my characters, especially Jared.
But, it's ~10000 words already. And I can't see the end of it *whines*
And I wanna sleep and not spend my evenings writing it.

But–yes, another but–I'm into this story. It's eating my brain and it makes my heart ache.
I love it *sighs* Though, I think it'd be the end of me))

P.S. new part of HMWIKY will be posted soon.

I wanted to write some angsty dark drabble, Sam/Dean, but! I ended up writing some porny drabble.
I don't wanna post it coz I still want to write that angsty drabble *sighs*

Title: Do you love those shattered pieces left of me?
Author: SanAnn
Pairing, characters: Sam/Dean
Spoilers: pre-series and through s1
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~8000
Beta: billysgirl5
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Summary: "He could literally feel himself falling, his breaking heart beating louder and louder until all he wanted was for it to stop. Stop beating. Stop completely. He wanted it all to be over".


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( Do you love those shattered pieces left of me? )

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So, I'm writing a new J2 story for my doll secretlytodream, and it's kind of a sweet story actually.
And, I don't write sweet stories))

Also, it's a long story. Yeah.. *suffers*
And why can't I write the short ones anymore?!

Title: Hold Me While I’m Killing You (8/?)
Author: SanAnn
Pairing, characters: Dean/Sam (established relationship), Meg/Tom
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3884
Beta: my one and only billysgirl5
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Summary: “When you were in Hell, all I could think about was you.” – “When I was in Hell, all I could think about was coming back to you.”
A/N: I wanted to write this story for a very long time, since the moment I knew that Sam wasn’t the one to bring Dean back.
Any feedback is highly appreciated.

 

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( Dean avoids him, Sam can almost feel the «back off» scream Dean suppress every time Sam’s eyes linger on Dean’s skin )
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I'm writing a very disturbing story. Sam's POV, Stanford time, kinda wincest'ish.
I'm not sure if anyone would like it.
Also, it's a present for my beta, though I'm not sure if she'd find it pleasant. Disturbing, remember?
Anyway, I just had to let it out.

Amazing episode.
( spoilers for SPN 5x05 )

Title: Hold Me While I’m Killing You (7/?)
Author: SanAnn
Pairing, characters : Dean/Sam (established relationship), Meg/Tom
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3100
Beta: my one and only billysgirl5
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Summary: “When you were in Hell, all I could think about was you.” – “When I was in Hell, all I could think about was coming back to you.”
A/N: I wanted to write this story for a very long time, since the moment I knew that Sam wasn’t the one to bring Dean back.
Any feedback is highly appreciated.



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( Sam’s nightmare is like a slap from the past.  )

 

Sweet billysgirl5  is celebrating her B -day today!
She's all kinds of awesome, and I'm lucky to have such amazing beta!
And she's much more to me than just my beta)))

Happy birthday, darling.
I hope you're having a great time!
I love you!

So, under the cut there's the picspam of the guy we both love and adore.
Smiling Jared is only for you)))

( Beware of Paddywhack! )

My doll secretlytodream  made awesome goodies for my story HOLD ME WHILE I'M KILLING YOU, including the walls, icons, banners, posters and even trailer. 
OMFGIMABSOLUTELYHAPPYGHTDSRYKJLL!!!!

You should go and check her JL for all the goodies, and download the trailer here

Ficking amazing trailer. 

This vid is AWESOME!
Author's summary: Hitler reads spoilers for Supernatural's fifth season.
Even so, I'm not really on the same page about Misha/Cas stuff, but OMG!!! the other things were taken right out of my mouth.

sometimes, i don't understand why the fuck do i keep on writing. 

Aren't you a big boy now, Jay?
Though you're still a dorky dork)) Don't change.
Keep on shooting for the stars!
And let your love flow and show.

WE LOVE YOU!




 

I've received a poscard from  deanvica23 
It is so sweet and awesome!
Thank you so much, darling! *squishes you*

As my sweet and amazing beta is on vacation (and I hope she'll have a lot of fun and rest there, she deserves it), the next part of "Hold me.." won't be posted till the end of the month.
But, I can give away a tiny spoiler))
One of the big revelations is coming in the next part with someone/something from the past.
Sorry, that's it((
So, any ideas?
C'mon, you can give it a try.

P.S. Also, huge thanks to the ones who are reading and leaving the comments *loves you all*

Title: Hold Me While I’m Killing You (4/?)
Author: SanAnn
Pairing: Dean/Sam (established relationship)
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2136
Beta: my one and only billysgirl5
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Summary: “When you were in Hell, all I could think about was you.” – “When I was in Hell, all I could think about was coming back to you.”
A/N: I wanted to write this story for a very long time, since the moment I knew that Sam wasn’t the one to bring Dean back.


( Seems like hell found new ways to reach out for him. )

 

I love this man like... I don't know, it's beyond the words.
It's been more than seven years since I fell in love with the guy (Lindsey, yeah).
I wish him to have the BEST, and never change.
You are one crazy motherfucker and we love you!